Last Day

It felt really good to drop off boxes of contracts, hand in my badge, office key and cell phone. Last night I worked super late to complete all the projects I promised I'd complete. As I drove off and onto the highway, I realized that I am someone who cares about my words. Although I had some rough times there, I wanted to leave on a positive note, I wanted to make sure they regretted letting me get away. The sweetest revenge is success. I may meet these people again, the telecom world is small.

It also felt wonderful how many connections I'd made with vendors. So many of them responded to my farewell email. I really am glad to have left Symantec. The place felt too cold, very business and little relationship building.

This evening, Rachel, Aesha and I sat shiva for Tikva. I watched Dave and Gal as they opened their home. I didn't have many words for them, I didn't know how to express the grief they must be feeling. I could only imagine if anything happened to Aesha....how devastated I'd be. How does one recover from such a thing? I guess if you had faith that death is not the end, but only another level. I'm not sure how I feel about death. The science behind how our bodies work doesn't allow any room to explain the soul. Every once in awhile, I do question whether we just stop existing when we do. Do the lights just extinguish? Then I look at a corpse and see the difference between what is just flesh and what we have, so much more.

So I have two weeks before starting my new position at Gap. Already, my schedule is full with friends to visit that I haven't seen, and a list of things to complete. It's good that we have that week at burningman to do nothing but enjoy each other, our friends, our lives.

Sending Strenghth to Tikva Ahava Spinrad

I have been extremely touched by Gal and Dave Spinrad's blogs www.growinginside.blogspot.com. They have been so generous sharing their process and feelings. Their daughter, Tikva, is having a difficult time. As a mother, I can only imagine what they are going through and how courageous they are. Our family is concentrating our energy and sending them to Tikva.